Eleven weeks old

Our little sweetie, Jack, is eleven weeks old today! What a miracle. He is such a joy. This also means that I go back to work one week from today. Although I am ready, part of me is also not ready.

Last night I sold all of my maternity clothes, ending the baby-making chapter of our lives. We have tried so hard to get here with our beautiful boys that it is hard to believe we are finally here! I am sad that it is over but happy for the next chapters.

I will try not to ever forget the feelings that I have had over the last year and the feelings I have now. It is such a whirlwind. We waited so long to get pregnant with Jack and did not know if it would ever happen. Then, when we finally got the positive pregnancy test, we had to wait to see the doctor to hear his little heartbeat. After that we waited for him to be born (and so that we could find out if he was a "he" or a "she"). It seems like everything we waited for was finite - we knew it would happen but we still had to wait.

I remember waiting to go into labor and feeling so much back pain for the last month or so. I knew he would come sometime, but didn't know when, and the waiting was so hard! I remember being IN labor and still waiting...not sure when the baby would come. Would it be one hour? Would it be 24 hours?

Now that we have Jack here with Jace, it seems like we don't have to wait for anything more. We just enjoy the moments every day. I am only 2.5 months into this, but when people say it is easier to have two of the same sex, I think that very well could be true. We can reuse all clothes and toys. And, Jack just looks at Jace already with such wonder. I can already tell that in a year Jace will be taking him outside and trying to teach him how to ride a trike. They will be hanging out with Daddy and pretending to mow the lawn with plastic mowers.

Jace also loves his little brother. He always asks "Can I wake my brother up?" and he wants to sit with both of us. He gives the baby all sorts of toys (sometimes there are so many toys I am afraid Jack will get buried!) and says "We like to share." It is so cute! Jace is almost always gentle and loving, just like his father.

We are so blessed and we love our life as a family of four. We are so glad Jack is here.